This is me with some of the people I work for. I work there for 13 months. It was at first hard to get use to working with so many people and the language difference didnt help a lot!! But they learned to love me (I think they do) lol...

My Road to recovery!!

Every day is a battle. A battle to survive, to be the best mum and dad in the world, to give enough love. Some days I forgot to look at myself and be with myself. Then when I have a really bad day all the emotions just come tumbling down and you have to face all the heartache you tried to avoid for so long. I am trying to work out why people hurt the ones they love the most. If I can figure that one out I will be more than happy with myself.

Is it a human thing ?

I don't know!!! I just know that after my break up I will think twice before I do anything to anyone. People don't realize how bad their actions and words effect their loved ones. I lost the man I love to a one night stand?

How do you explain to yourself that you are not that bad? Why would he give up everything to be with you and then 18 months down the track he cheats on you with a girl he met in pub? And he blames it on the bottle of wine he had that night! He never even had a glass of wine with me!!
How do you look at yourself again and say " you are special!" ??? Impossible.
I think at this stage...

I know everyone says the problem is with him he needs to find himself and be happy with who he are etc. But I am human and my brain tells me the man you betrayed your love with a person that would sleep with a man she don't even know!!

I hope all my friends will realize what I am going through at this stage of my life. And for those who have been supporting me and THANK YOU!!!

This is to all my friends "You will know who you are"

Are you tired of those "sissy" Friendship poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality?
Well here is serier of promises that actually speak of true friendship.
You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card. Just the stone of cold truth of our great friendship.

1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile - I will know you got laid.
4. When you are scared - I will take the piss out of you about it, every chance I get.
5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining.
6. When you are confused - I will use little words.
7. When you are sick - Stay away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath...... I pledge it to the end. "Why" you may ask; "Because you are my friend"

Hi to all my friends there in South Africa!!! I hope everyone is doing good and you enjoy the sunshine... For a change the sun is shining here too and it seems like the summer might be here!! It is now almost 4 months since me and Ross broke up. It is still hard for me. But I know it if for the best. I have met a lot of friends here that have been so good to me and my parents.
I will put a photo of Ross on here cause you have never even seen him!!!

This is philna at Foxton Beach Summer 2006 - What a happy child!! We could go to any beach or park with no fear the kids play wherever they want and they enjoy every moment of it. Ek sou nooit vir hulle dit kon gee wat ek nou vir hul gee nie. Dit maak my hart so seer om te sien hoe mykids grootword en al die mense wat vir my so baie beteken het toe ek alleen was mis dit... Maar weet elke keer wat ek in my kinders se laggende gesiggies vaskyk weet ek julle gun dit vir my..... Baie Dankie aan almal wat my bygestaan het toe ek plat was en sonder heenkome julle weet wie julle is.. Baie Dankie

This must of been a bitter pill for the kiwis... The day before the BID DAY World cup 2007 This was the photo on the front page of a KIWI newspaper... I dont have to say any more...

GO BOKKE!!!!!

This the newest addition to the family!! No he is not my cute little boy but my sister's baby. He is born on 30/10/2007 - his name is Juan... Just the smartest boy ever born..

After I did IFV with my ex partner (and failed at it 2) Juan have a very special place in my heart. After 7 years of not spending time with my family this is very special that I could be here when he was born

Hi Everyone
This is to let you know how my second chance for happiness is going. I will try to keep you updated as much as I can. To give you some background. I was married in October 1999, my first baby was born 11/05/00 Merische Louise Verhoef. My second baby born 13/09/01 Philna Christell Verhoef. I got divorced 28/04/05. Moved to NZ 28/02/06,