My Road to recovery!!

Every day is a battle. A battle to survive, to be the best mum and dad in the world, to give enough love. Some days I forgot to look at myself and be with myself. Then when I have a really bad day all the emotions just come tumbling down and you have to face all the heartache you tried to avoid for so long. I am trying to work out why people hurt the ones they love the most. If I can figure that one out I will be more than happy with myself.

Is it a human thing ?

I don't know!!! I just know that after my break up I will think twice before I do anything to anyone. People don't realize how bad their actions and words effect their loved ones. I lost the man I love to a one night stand?

How do you explain to yourself that you are not that bad? Why would he give up everything to be with you and then 18 months down the track he cheats on you with a girl he met in pub? And he blames it on the bottle of wine he had that night! He never even had a glass of wine with me!!
How do you look at yourself again and say " you are special!" ??? Impossible.
I think at this stage...

I know everyone says the problem is with him he needs to find himself and be happy with who he are etc. But I am human and my brain tells me the man you betrayed your love with a person that would sleep with a man she don't even know!!

I hope all my friends will realize what I am going through at this stage of my life. And for those who have been supporting me and THANK YOU!!!