Why do I always do this?? Everytime something good comes in my life I have the ability to scare it out of my life.I will not get over this mistake very easy in my life. This was truly one of the nicest things that ever happened to me. Is it that I dont know how to handle happiness? Why do I find it so hard to believe that something good can happen to me?
Or maybe it is a part of my heart that was healed that is scared of breaking again?
I was so happy! For such a short time.... I laughed in the morning when I woke up, I went to bed with a smile. I laughed for no reason during the day! For once I had hope, was positive. With one txt I destroyed it...
Can I do anything about it now? No! That is the hard truth.... Now I have lost all hope and I have to think to myself maybe you are meant to be unhappy for the rest of your life??
For the record I loved the way I felt this past 2 weeks, It was amazing to had dreams again...
Back to reality now again though!!!
Maybe in 2010!!!!
